This one time, at Esalen…..
This one time, at Esalen, we weren’t supposed to take pot, but everyone did.
With that in mind…..I was sitting at one of the outdoor dining tables overlooking the glorious Big Sur coastline, when one of the girls in my work-study group came up behind me. She gave me a big hug and put her head on my shoulder. I didn’t move. I just smiled and closed my eyes to enjoy the connection. Then…..a really weird thing happened…
All of the sudden, I had this vision? Or, maybe not a vision. It’s hard to describe because I did see some things but I also felt what I was seeing in my body. I don’t know how long this lasted…..but, I saw this woman who was hugging me as a young child. I saw scenes of her with her mother in what I assume was her home. I felt the memory of this scene as if it had happened to me. It seemed like in an instant, I had all of her life memories. In my body, I felt like I was her and had always been her.
I had never met this young woman before coming to Esalen, however, she was the very first person I met upon my arrival. We had ridden in the shuttle van from San Francisco together. I’ve had premonitions before, but never an experience like this and I haven’t since. When she suddenly pulled away from me the vision/experience was over. I turned to look at her and she was staring at me with eyes really wide and asked….”What just happened?”
I said…..”I don’t know.”
She walked away and we never talked about it again. I’ve thought about contacting her to do so, but I don’t want to analyze it.
The book I’ve been reading lately is mainly about transpersonal psychology and altered states of consciousness. The research and science behind consciousness is becoming more and more mainstream.
Through the few glimpses I’ve had (which have not all included pot) I am certain that the whole “We are One” thing is Real. Beyond the illusion of separation, Connection is. You don’t have to believe me. In fact please don’t. Just try living Connection.
If you find yourself feeling insecure, fearful, anxious, angry, or sad….it’s because you are under the illusion that you are separate from everyone and everything around you. Looking through the lens of separation we are frightened and lonely. This fear is why we feel the need to gather around people who have the same beliefs. But, that’s not a cure, it only gives temporary relief and in a broader view separates us from everyone whose worldview doesn’t match ours.
The 8th and final Limb of Yoga is Samadhi. It is a state free of differentiation. Train your Eye to see similarities. Search the heart of your ‘enemy’ (anyone you don’t agree with for any reason) for what brings you together rather than dressing your opinions in righteousness to be better, smarter, holier or more enlightened. Train
your mind in the ways of Love. This is the only thing that will Save the World and it doesn’t require your belief.